This was supposed to be a post with a great giveaway in it. I just hadn't thought of it yet.
However, my giveaway will have to wait. You may remember that in my last post.. I talked about getting some bad news... and I need to blog about it now.
12 days ago, my whole life changed. I pulled into my parent's driveway ready to meet my mom and go out for the evening. I saw my mom and asked if she was ready to leave, and she said "well, I've had kind of a bad day... we need to talk." She explained to me that my dad was having an affair, and that she kicked him out. I spent Friday working on the office/craft room, then spent the rest of the weekend crying.
Yesterday, my mom filed for divorce. My dad has already put in an offer on a new house and keeps talking about "starting over."
I do not feel good. I'm actually angry at people who went through divorce as children. Because, they were sent to psychologists, people cared what they went through. I keep hearing "oh, just get over it." I don't want to. I want to hit people, I want to stay in bed all day, I want to cry. But, no, I'm an adult. I have to go to work, and act like I'm not falling to pieces, I have to act like I'm not loosing my hope and faith in love. I have to pretend that this doesn't make me SO FREAKING SCARED to get married. It's hard. And it's happening SO fast.
So, there's where I'm at, readers.
2 comments:
I don't even know what to say, but I agree that I think it can be just as hard when you are an adult, maybe even harder. All I can offer is prayer, so that's what I'll do. Hang in there!
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I've been meaning to send you a message to see how things are going and now I'm kicking my own ass for not getting to it sooner. I am so sorry that you are going through this now. It really sucks that you can't take the time that you need to really be sad. I know that you are mad at your dad- that he betrayed your family -and you have a right to be mad. Just take a little time in all of your anger to be thankful that you are out on your own and that no matter what happens next your future marriage has nothing to do with your parents. Better yet- you can learn from their mistakes and make your and Brett's relationship even stronger! Remember too that your mom is a strong, bad ass chick and that she's going to make it- but remember to be there for her as well. I love you. You can call me anytime!
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